Monday, April 27, 2009
So, here I am, enjoying the last few days of my holiday before I have to start my classes again. On the bright side, it's the last semester, so in 3 months, I'll graduate. (that is if I pass all my subjects :X)
A lot of things has happened during this few months since January, mainly my spiritual walk with God. As a 'baby' christian, I always felt God's presence. I can always feel Him around me, but as I began to grow, I felt like God is not there.
It's like He walked away from me. And that was the period of time, where I needed Him most. I was preparing for my exams, working part time and I have my chores to do at home. I was very overwhelmed with all responsibilities and I couldn't understand why God wasn't there for me.
Then I started reading this book, "The Purpose Driven Life" and I realised that God deliberately hides from us to test us. He is testing our faith. When God seems far from us, when it seems like He has abandoned us, will we still believe and trust Him?
The book mentioned that God's omnipresence and the manifestation of his presence are two very different things. The first one is a fact. God is always, even when we don't know it, He's there. The second one is a feeling. God wants us to sense his presence but more importantly he wants us to trust him then feel him. Quote: "Faith, not feelings, pleases God."
And when we continue to trust him even when we feel like he has abandoned us, we are woshipping him in the deepest way. Just remember in Joshua 1:5, God's promise to us. "... I'll never leave you nor forsake you."
Casting Crowns - I Know You're There
Chorus:
Cause I, I know You're there, I know You see me
You're the air I breathe
You're the ground beneath me
I know You're there, I know You hear me
I can find You anywhere
With that, I leave you. (: Good night!
A lot of things has happened during this few months since January, mainly my spiritual walk with God. As a 'baby' christian, I always felt God's presence. I can always feel Him around me, but as I began to grow, I felt like God is not there.
It's like He walked away from me. And that was the period of time, where I needed Him most. I was preparing for my exams, working part time and I have my chores to do at home. I was very overwhelmed with all responsibilities and I couldn't understand why God wasn't there for me.
Then I started reading this book, "The Purpose Driven Life" and I realised that God deliberately hides from us to test us. He is testing our faith. When God seems far from us, when it seems like He has abandoned us, will we still believe and trust Him?
The book mentioned that God's omnipresence and the manifestation of his presence are two very different things. The first one is a fact. God is always, even when we don't know it, He's there. The second one is a feeling. God wants us to sense his presence but more importantly he wants us to trust him then feel him. Quote: "Faith, not feelings, pleases God."
And when we continue to trust him even when we feel like he has abandoned us, we are woshipping him in the deepest way. Just remember in Joshua 1:5, God's promise to us. "... I'll never leave you nor forsake you."
Casting Crowns - I Know You're There
Chorus:
Cause I, I know You're there, I know You see me
You're the air I breathe
You're the ground beneath me
I know You're there, I know You hear me
I can find You anywhere
With that, I leave you. (: Good night!
I believe in happy endings...10:29 PM.
