Monday, July 13, 2009
Read something earlier, and it made me think. Not that the story was something that would trigger thoughts but it stirred my emotions. Like all stories would... It made me sad, happy, heart broken, angry and what not... Then it made me think, am I too sensetive? Too in touch with my feelings?
I always though I'm a logical person but then recently I realised that I'm also a very emotional person. Okay, maybe I realised that a long time ago, but I tried to deny it. I didn't want to be a person who would be ruled by her emotions.
Sometimes I think I think too much, feel too much... And it affects me. Feeling for fictional characters that exsited only on paper, or on screen. Feeling all that my friends are feeling... Then sometimes I don't understand. Am I born to be senstive? Am I supposed to be able to so freely tap into my feelings? Sometimes, I think being so senstive did more harm than good, because sometimes it consumes me.
Would there be a day where I stop feeling? What would happen, if one day, my heart harden and it grew cold? Would it be a good thing for me? Not being able to feel... At the very least I wouldn't be able to feel sad... And at least stories would be nothing but entertainment. At least, I would not be affected by things that don't concern me. But, I don't know... would it do me any good?
I have so many questions... and no answer. God, I need answers...
I always though I'm a logical person but then recently I realised that I'm also a very emotional person. Okay, maybe I realised that a long time ago, but I tried to deny it. I didn't want to be a person who would be ruled by her emotions.
Sometimes I think I think too much, feel too much... And it affects me. Feeling for fictional characters that exsited only on paper, or on screen. Feeling all that my friends are feeling... Then sometimes I don't understand. Am I born to be senstive? Am I supposed to be able to so freely tap into my feelings? Sometimes, I think being so senstive did more harm than good, because sometimes it consumes me.
Would there be a day where I stop feeling? What would happen, if one day, my heart harden and it grew cold? Would it be a good thing for me? Not being able to feel... At the very least I wouldn't be able to feel sad... And at least stories would be nothing but entertainment. At least, I would not be affected by things that don't concern me. But, I don't know... would it do me any good?
I have so many questions... and no answer. God, I need answers...
I believe in happy endings...8:10 PM.
