Saturday, August 29, 2009
Now, you better be nice to your telephone operator... LOL.
I believe in happy endings...8:52 PM.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
"What should I do?" This is the question that has been bugging me since I don't know when. Then from this question comes "What course should I take?", "What institue should I go to?", "Should I work first then study? Or take a part time degree? Or study first?", "If I work first, then what should I work as?" LOL. So many questions. I believe that at one point of our lives, we will encounter these questions, for some people. For the lucky ones, their parents are loaded enough to pay for everything that they don't have to worry about paying school fees on time and stuff like that. Money is just there for them. I envy these people... I think some people will never understand how diffcult is it to work and study at the same time.
Anyways, back to my point, all these questions hanging over my head, but no answers... yet. I know God will eventually give me an answer but when God? How long am I suppose to wait? Or have You already given me a sign but I missed it? Right now, I feel more or less like a parasite. Sit at home and do nothing... Not contributing to anything and still using resources...
I need answers...
Anyways, back to my point, all these questions hanging over my head, but no answers... yet. I know God will eventually give me an answer but when God? How long am I suppose to wait? Or have You already given me a sign but I missed it? Right now, I feel more or less like a parasite. Sit at home and do nothing... Not contributing to anything and still using resources...
I need answers...
I believe in happy endings...9:36 AM.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
So, here I am, on a Saturday afternoon... blogging... out of boredem! Isn't it sad? I mean it's Saturday but I have nothing to do. And I mean totally nothing to do. People use Staurday to go out and do stuff like meet friends and shop or whatever but I'm alone in my room doing nothing. It's not that I like to go out, in fact I'm not a big fan of crowd so, going shopping is a big no no. I like being alone, doing my own things. But when there's nothing to do, time passes by like a snail trying to cross the road... SLOW!
And guess my aunts told me when I told them I am bored and have nothing to do. Get a boyfriend! Seriously? Because I'm bored so I should go look for a guy? Is the even the right reason? Oh gosh, I'm only 19 and they're acting like I'm gonna get married tomorrow. I mean, I love being single. Some girls are like so controlled by their BF that they loose all freedom. Yeah, I think I'm gonna be single for some time. When the time is right, God will send someone...
Okay, I should stop ranting before I can't. Hope you'll have a good weekend!
And guess my aunts told me when I told them I am bored and have nothing to do. Get a boyfriend! Seriously? Because I'm bored so I should go look for a guy? Is the even the right reason? Oh gosh, I'm only 19 and they're acting like I'm gonna get married tomorrow. I mean, I love being single. Some girls are like so controlled by their BF that they loose all freedom. Yeah, I think I'm gonna be single for some time. When the time is right, God will send someone...
Okay, I should stop ranting before I can't. Hope you'll have a good weekend!
I believe in happy endings...2:03 PM.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I did something wrong... I was so annoyed by my brother, that I wanted to ask God to take him away... like make him vanish from my life or something. Then I realised that it doesn't work that way. So I prayed for patience instead.
On the bright side, there are always great videos on YouTube to brighten up my day a lil' more... Enjoy the ride... (:
On the bright side, there are always great videos on YouTube to brighten up my day a lil' more... Enjoy the ride... (:
I believe in happy endings...8:10 PM.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I've been feeling like a failure for a little while now, seeing my acomplishments...well, I have none. I've nothing that would actually make my parents proud, my results are always just average, actually, everything is just average. But then this morning the Lord reminded me of a story.
A water-bearer carries two large pots on a yoke across his shoulders up the hill from the river to his master's house each day. One has a crack and leaks half its water out each day before arriving at the house. The other pot is perfect and always delivered a full portion of water after the long walk from the river.
Finally, after years of arriving half-empty and feeling guilty, the cracked pot apologized to the water-bearer. It was miserable. "I'm sorry that I couldn't accomplish what the perfect pot did."
The water-bearer says, "What do you have to apologize for?"
"After all this time, I still only deliver half my load of water. I make more work for you because of my flaw."
The man smiled and told the pot. "Take note of all the lovely flowers growing on the side of the path where I carried you. The flowers grew so lovely because of the water you leaked. There are no flowers on the perfect pot's side."
He reminded that we all have our flaws and we are all cracked in some ways, but that's who we are. And if we let Him, God can use us in ways we cannot imagine... So, now I accept the fact that I'm a little damaged but if God can use me then I say, "Go ahead!" What about you?
A water-bearer carries two large pots on a yoke across his shoulders up the hill from the river to his master's house each day. One has a crack and leaks half its water out each day before arriving at the house. The other pot is perfect and always delivered a full portion of water after the long walk from the river.
Finally, after years of arriving half-empty and feeling guilty, the cracked pot apologized to the water-bearer. It was miserable. "I'm sorry that I couldn't accomplish what the perfect pot did."
The water-bearer says, "What do you have to apologize for?"
"After all this time, I still only deliver half my load of water. I make more work for you because of my flaw."
The man smiled and told the pot. "Take note of all the lovely flowers growing on the side of the path where I carried you. The flowers grew so lovely because of the water you leaked. There are no flowers on the perfect pot's side."
He reminded that we all have our flaws and we are all cracked in some ways, but that's who we are. And if we let Him, God can use us in ways we cannot imagine... So, now I accept the fact that I'm a little damaged but if God can use me then I say, "Go ahead!" What about you?
I believe in happy endings...10:06 AM.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
As of now, this very second, I feel happy. At peace. It's weird coz usually hours before my exam I'll be trembling with fear but right now, I feel safe. And I know it's God.
I woke up this morning, looked out the window and saw it was raining. I always liked rain, yes, it's a great time to sleep in but there's a deep meaning to it for me. It means showers of blessings from God, it means that the rain He sent has washed away all our sins and shame. And it means that even that now the skies are dark and gloomy, the sun will shine through. Like His love breaking all the barriers between us. And right now I feel safe and loved.
If ever, you feel lost and alone, or you feel dry and in pain, just know that God will put you through any thing that you cannot handle.
All of my life, in every season, You are still God.
I woke up this morning, looked out the window and saw it was raining. I always liked rain, yes, it's a great time to sleep in but there's a deep meaning to it for me. It means showers of blessings from God, it means that the rain He sent has washed away all our sins and shame. And it means that even that now the skies are dark and gloomy, the sun will shine through. Like His love breaking all the barriers between us. And right now I feel safe and loved.
If ever, you feel lost and alone, or you feel dry and in pain, just know that God will put you through any thing that you cannot handle.
All of my life, in every season, You are still God.
I believe in happy endings...11:47 AM.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Had our cell yesterday, and Pst LaiFun made a surprise visit... The worship by MeiShi was really good and I agree that we should worship like children, with a child-like faith. And "He's able" reminds me of my primary school days, where we sing like there's no one around us, it's just me and God. And I was just reminded that when we worship, we don't have to care about what the people around us will think or if they will judge us. We should just worship with all that we have, because we are doing it for God, not for man. And it's the simple gesture that pleases God. He doesn't want a world class band, He doesn't want a world class singer, all He wants is our heart. A heart that just wants to worship and please Him.
And as we share our word/song/bible verses from God, we realised that it all links to one another. the verses were mainly from Psalm. And I got a song from God.
"Your Grace us Sufficient"
There is power in grace...
And as we share our word/song/bible verses from God, we realised that it all links to one another. the verses were mainly from Psalm. And I got a song from God.
"Your Grace us Sufficient"
There is power in grace...
I believe in happy endings...12:05 PM.
