Friday, January 29, 2010
I'm so tired. As you know, I'm not doing much, but I'm tired. Like I said, I'm down with a very bad cough and flu... Which made me re-consider my decision of going to camp. I want to go! But with the cough and flu, I'm not sure. Then, last night, I had a short chat with Wens and she encouraged me to go, and I believe God will heal me. When I woke up this morning, I told myself I shall go for the camp. Then my period came... -.- Right now, I'm in pain... Painkillers are not working. My back hurts because of my period and it's just gonna get worse on the second day. And my mom... She didn't say it aloud, but I know she doesn't want me to go... Mainly because she's gonna be alone. My dad's working late, my bro's gonna be out late. She hates eating alone, so every Friday when I go for cell, I feel bad that I have to leave her alone for dinner. And usually on Saturday, we go out to dinner together. And then, she'll have to have dinner alone again.
I thought it would be easy for me to leave for the camp but now, this just seems like a battle for me. I'm so tired of arguing with myself, whether I should go or not. What should I do, God?
I thought it would be easy for me to leave for the camp but now, this just seems like a battle for me. I'm so tired of arguing with myself, whether I should go or not. What should I do, God?
I believe in happy endings...11:57 AM.
