Thursday, March 11, 2010
Hey... I'm so tired... lawl. I've been sleeping as much as I can but it just doesn't seem enough. Mainly because the meds for my chicky pox are making me drowsy and I guess my body is just tired from working overtime to fight the virus. Thank God I don't need to pay them... Okay, lame...
The itch isn't as bad as I thought it would be. But the meds are making me drowsy but not enough for me to fall asleep. So, I feel like I'm floating a little and my brain feels like it's half out. It's really just a disaster waiting to happen. I don't really have full control of what I say and do, since my brain is clogged out on meds. I keep saying stupid things and when I try to write, my grammar/spelling goes to Hell (as Calie so nicely put it...) But yeah, I'd have failed my english test if I had a test while on the drugs. It's that bad...
I'm healing well, the fever has gone away and I'm feeling a lot better. Thanks for all your prayers and sms-es. I really appreciate it... Hope to see you soon.
Before I go, I'd like to share a song with you. No, it's not a Christian song but I love it. 'Crazy Ride' by Michelle Branch. It's such an amazing song. It's a lullaby she wrote for her daughter and like she said, 'It's not your typical sunshine and rainbows lullaby, it's kinda a realistic lullaby..." It's really sweet and I think you'll like it.
'Crazy Ride' by Michelle Branch
Goodnight big moon
Sweet dreams baby
If I could have one wish tonight
It would be that
You'll always keep
Keep the starlight in your eyes
One day you'll grow up
One day you'll walk out
In this big world on your own
And there'll be days when
Your heart will break and
You'll swear that all your strength is gone
But then you'll find a way to carry on
Heaven knows that it's a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
It will pull you down and send you flyin'
So baby hold on tight
On this crazy ride
So don't be scared when
You're in the darkness
And the sun is swallowed by the ground
You'll think it's gone but its hanging on
Its just on the other side of town
Even when it's lost, it can be found
Heaven knows that it's a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
It will pull you down and send you flyin'
So baby hold on tight
On this crazy ride
Heaven knows that it's a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
You'll know it's just a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
It will pull you down and send you flyin'
So baby hold on tight
On this crazy ride
Goodnight big moon
Sweet dreams baby
The itch isn't as bad as I thought it would be. But the meds are making me drowsy but not enough for me to fall asleep. So, I feel like I'm floating a little and my brain feels like it's half out. It's really just a disaster waiting to happen. I don't really have full control of what I say and do, since my brain is clogged out on meds. I keep saying stupid things and when I try to write, my grammar/spelling goes to Hell (as Calie so nicely put it...) But yeah, I'd have failed my english test if I had a test while on the drugs. It's that bad...
I'm healing well, the fever has gone away and I'm feeling a lot better. Thanks for all your prayers and sms-es. I really appreciate it... Hope to see you soon.
Before I go, I'd like to share a song with you. No, it's not a Christian song but I love it. 'Crazy Ride' by Michelle Branch. It's such an amazing song. It's a lullaby she wrote for her daughter and like she said, 'It's not your typical sunshine and rainbows lullaby, it's kinda a realistic lullaby..." It's really sweet and I think you'll like it.
'Crazy Ride' by Michelle Branch
Goodnight big moon
Sweet dreams baby
If I could have one wish tonight
It would be that
You'll always keep
Keep the starlight in your eyes
One day you'll grow up
One day you'll walk out
In this big world on your own
And there'll be days when
Your heart will break and
You'll swear that all your strength is gone
But then you'll find a way to carry on
Heaven knows that it's a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
It will pull you down and send you flyin'
So baby hold on tight
On this crazy ride
So don't be scared when
You're in the darkness
And the sun is swallowed by the ground
You'll think it's gone but its hanging on
Its just on the other side of town
Even when it's lost, it can be found
Heaven knows that it's a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
It will pull you down and send you flyin'
So baby hold on tight
On this crazy ride
Heaven knows that it's a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
You'll know it's just a crazy ride
It's never perfect all the time
It will pull you down and send you flyin'
So baby hold on tight
On this crazy ride
Goodnight big moon
Sweet dreams baby
I believe in happy endings...11:20 AM.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I Haven't Even Heard You Cry by Aaron Lines
Well I don't drive through the night these days
It's just not a chance I'm willing to take
And I don't spend my money foolishly
Cause there's important things that you're gonna need
You already got a hold on me
And I haven't even heard you cry
I haven't even looked into your eyes
I haven't held you one time but you've changed my life
And I don't even know your name
But I know I'll never be the same
Oh I can't wait to show you you can fly
And I haven't even heard you cry
You might look like your mom, you might look like me
I don't really care as long as you're healthy
And I'll make mistakes there's no doubt
But love's one thing you won't live without
Cause you own a place in my heart now
And I haven't even heard you cry
I haven't even looked into your eyes
I haven't held you one time but you've changed my life
And I don't even know your name
But I know I'll never be the same
Oh I can't wait to show you you can fly
And I haven't even heard you cry
Well I don't even know your name
But I know I'll never be the same
Oh I can't wait to show you you can fly
I'm thinking about first steps and bike rides
And I haven't even heard you cry
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So, yeah... I'm down with chicken pox. But it's not that bad because it was detected early and thank God I have a real good doctor, he gave me a stronger medicine to combat the bacteria and also help lessened the 'suffering'. So, instead of two weeks MC, he gave me a week. And I'll have to go back to him next Sunday for another check up. If he thinks I'm fine, I can go back to work, if not it's another 2-3 days MC.
And thanks a lot girls! I got your sms-es and no worries, I'll take care of myself. Please take care of yourself too. Drink lots of water and eat lots of fruits. (that's what my doctor told me.) Thanks for your prayers... Will see you soon! (:
I believe in happy endings...11:59 AM.
Friday, March 5, 2010
There's something wrong with me...
You know how when you're a child, you're excited to see you parents? You run to them, you think of them all the time and you ask for them. When you grow older, especially when you become a teenager, your relationship with your parents grow apart. You just don't seem to want to see them as much as when you were younger... Or even sometimes, you don't even want to see them...
And I think it's the same thing with God. When we're a young Christian, you're excited about God and you're just hungry for him. But as we grow, our relationship with God changes... Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse... And right now, I think my relationship with God has changed for the worse. I just don't feel Him anymore. I don't have this hunger for Him... What's going on with me? I know He's always there for me... But that's just head knowledge; my heart doesn't feel the same way.
I'm in some serious trouble , aren't I?
You know how when you're a child, you're excited to see you parents? You run to them, you think of them all the time and you ask for them. When you grow older, especially when you become a teenager, your relationship with your parents grow apart. You just don't seem to want to see them as much as when you were younger... Or even sometimes, you don't even want to see them...
And I think it's the same thing with God. When we're a young Christian, you're excited about God and you're just hungry for him. But as we grow, our relationship with God changes... Sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse... And right now, I think my relationship with God has changed for the worse. I just don't feel Him anymore. I don't have this hunger for Him... What's going on with me? I know He's always there for me... But that's just head knowledge; my heart doesn't feel the same way.
I'm in some serious trouble , aren't I?
I believe in happy endings...8:30 PM.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Hey... It's been kinda long since my last update. Sorry. Got a new job, so I've been tired/busy/lazy.
So, everything's pretty alright... Nothing much has changed, except that I got a new job but I shan't talk about it, since I believe the people who read this lil' diary of mine are mainly people I talk to, so no point repeating myself, and I'm kinda lazy... lawl. Yep, till the same ole me... Still wondering about studies and career choices... Yeah, my life's pretty boring...
To everyone who's reading, please PLEASE pray for me. I've been having a lot of doubts about my baptism. And I've been really scared to ask my parents about it... Especially my dad. Haven't talked to him about it yet. I'm really scared... Please pray that I'll have faith in God and also that I have the courage to face my parents... Thanks a lot!
Hope that you'll hear good news soon!
So, everything's pretty alright... Nothing much has changed, except that I got a new job but I shan't talk about it, since I believe the people who read this lil' diary of mine are mainly people I talk to, so no point repeating myself, and I'm kinda lazy... lawl. Yep, till the same ole me... Still wondering about studies and career choices... Yeah, my life's pretty boring...
To everyone who's reading, please PLEASE pray for me. I've been having a lot of doubts about my baptism. And I've been really scared to ask my parents about it... Especially my dad. Haven't talked to him about it yet. I'm really scared... Please pray that I'll have faith in God and also that I have the courage to face my parents... Thanks a lot!
Hope that you'll hear good news soon!
I believe in happy endings...8:22 PM.
